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    vdex note:
      fixed a bunch of formatting inconsistencies within my breeding logs, it's been bothering me for a long time but i was too lazy to mess with it lol

      started a new breeding project as well, the last one took foreeeever.

    personal note:
      my sleep schedule is mostly back on track but i've been an anxious mess. not depressed so much though.

      my body never feels right and i get overstimulated and overwhelmed to the point where i shut down and cry for hours.
      it got so bad i hurt myself for the first time in eight months lmao. nothing even prompted it i just couldn't handle anything.

      i told my therapist and she thinks it's a non-issue/it'll resolve in a month when some things in my life sort themselves out but i'm not convinced. and i'm a total wreck right now so that doesn't matter anyway.
      i don't want to see her anymore but without her i don't have much of an outlet.
      i have my boyfriend to talk to but tonight he's gonna be partying all night so i can't talk about anything with him lol. i'm not in a very good place.

      there's a pit in my stomach and my mind won't rest and idk if i'll be getting any sleep either.
      and hell, i'm not even caffeinated.
      i wish i were though, maybe it'd help me ignore things, get something done, yknow?

      at least netflix has house on it lol.

      i wish i had something positive to put in here every once in awhile.

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Fri Jun 10, 2016 12:43 am
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    vdex note:
      finally found the shiny gastly and cubone that i had been looking for, but they're BOTH FRAME2, WHAT THE ACTUAL HECK ;-;
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      they're super cute but it's bothering me immensely that they're not plain hgss, this happened with a spinda awhile back too.

      i can't believe that for several hunts now the results have been frame2 sprites ahah
      never magnemite tho ... never lucky

      also out of about 40 eggs, 5 have been pinkan! only 2 males tho so i have to find some way to get rid of extra females
      here's to more males! (pls ;;)

    personal note:
      i wish my life wasn't at such a standstill :\

      i'm not really depressed anymore, not a lot anyway, just one night every few weeks maybe.
      i just get so bored and then i'm so anxious and i never know how to handle it.

      it's kinda weird too bc my self image has been at an all time high as of late, but i feel so physically uncomfortable regardless that it basically counteracts :B
      and while i still love some things about my body, the things that bother me make me unbelievably self conscious, more than usual. it makes me feel more than a little bad, even if other people don't notice or care.

      i wish i'd gotten a job three months back when i had the chance because my life has been absolutely meaningless for a quarter of a year lmao.
      and for all i know i won't even get my surgery. that'd be fun. all this work and struggling through recovery for nothing lol. absolute asymmetry (my biggest self image issue) for the rest of my damn life.

      i just hope something changes soon.

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Sun Jun 26, 2016 2:53 am
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    vdex note:
      another 40 eggs and i've gotten ONE MALE and nothing else lmaooo

      searchin for some shiny horsea and staryu now, and hopefully some shiny roamers if all goes well.

      a kippy can dream, right?

      i wanna breed some stuff for myself but i have no idea what. i don't own the natures i need, i can't donate, but i need to use this pure on something or i'm gonna go crazy

    personal note:
      went to the doctor in hopes of good news but apparently i won't be able to get surgery till a month from now at the earliest OTL

      they said i'm too weak even tho the reason i'm so off-balance is simply because one of my legs is shorter than the other and they are strong/weak in different places.

      but they want me doing the same exercises on both sides anyway lol.

      so now i'm doin squats and gettin buff. HYPE.

      in other news, my sleep schedule is beyond rekt despite very little caffeine intake. i've been cleaning/organizing for the past ~6 hours and now i'm probably gonna spend the rest of the night playing league.

      oops.

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Tue Jul 12, 2016 5:46 am
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    vdex note:
      150 discards
      im only getting females
      HNNNNNNNNNNG
      I JUST NEED ONE MORE MALE ;;

      i'm still withdrawing all the females and releasing them bc i have money to burn and other people still want pinkans but goshdarnit

      i'm just gonna keep breeding stuffs for other people until i figure out what i wanna do for myself lol

    personal note:
      i've stopped and started a bunch of different physical therapy regimens bc my doctors are still trying to figure out what i'm needing to do.

      i had a pretty bad scare where one of the exercises shifted my hip/knee and i couldn't walk normally for days bc it hurt too bad. but it's sorted out now.

      i have to get an mri bc despite all the exercise there's one muscle that just won't get stronger. that's the main thing putting off surgery.
      which is now probably gonna be in the fall.
      three months later than last year.

      i think it'll all be worth it though. i'm just glad i'll be up and walking for all this summer.

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Sat Jul 30, 2016 5:36 pm
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    summary: a list of things i wanna get done before the site shuts down at the new year.


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    HUNTING PROJECTS :
    Image (route 114)
    Image (route 114)


    POKEDEX :
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    Image (victory road)
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    Fri Aug 26, 2016 3:12 am
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      vdex note:

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        WHY IS IT MALE. WHY. GAAAAAHH

        scrapped kawaii natu bc after around 200 discards i still only had one successful egg so yeah. let's hope that never happens ever again
        gonna be doing league breeding stuffs till i run out of options and then it's onto more pinkans.

        my pokedex is almost finished so that's rad. i just need to breed phione and catch a couple legends and then we gucci

      personal note:
        well according to all the scans the surgery went fine and i just need to get buff. they're removing the plate/screws sometime in the next month-ish so hopefully my leg looks less wonky with that out of there.

        i started new meds and they're working well! i've been on somewhat of a positive / productive streak which has resulted in me taking better care of my hair, face, etc (and splurging on makeup whoops)

        i'm keeping an exercise journal irl as well as a lyrics journal (which has been in use on / off for four years) and now i have a general pseudo-bullet journal going. all sorts of good stuffs.

        if this all keeps up then i think i'll be pretty happy for quite awhile. i think i like where things are going. :)

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    Tue Sep 06, 2016 2:24 am
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      summary: a more in-depth look at future breeding projects in light of everstone/cost changes. gonna be crankin out a bunch of league-related ones hopefully.

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    Sun Oct 02, 2016 10:35 pm
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      summary: a list of pokemon that i'd like to use a sparkle ball on


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    Tue Oct 04, 2016 5:35 pm
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      summary: a list of pinkans i still need by generation (primarily for mine/scarey kerri's reference)

      note: if genders are unlisted, i have no preference. --- = current point


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      kanto wrote:
      weedle x1
      pidgey x2
      rattata x3 (one male, two females)
      spearow x1
      pikachu x3 (one male, two females)
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      nidoran x2 (female)
      nidoran x2 (male)
      clefairy x2
      jigglypuff x2
      zubat x4 (two males, two females)
      oddish x5 (two males, two females)
      paras x2
      venonat x2
      diglett x2
      meowth x1
      mankey x2
      growlithe x1
      poliwag x4
      abra x5 (two males, two females)
      bellsprout x3
      tentacool x2
      geodude x3
      ponyta x2
      farfetchd x1
      doduo x4 (two males, two females)
      seel x2
      grimer x2
      shellder x2
      onix x2
      drowzee x1 (female)
      krabby x2
      voltorb x2
      exeggcute x2
      hitmonlee x1
      hitmonchan x1
      lickitung x2
      koffing x2
      rhyhorn x6 (three males, three females)
      kangaskhan x1
      goldeen x4 (two males, two females)
      staryu x1
      mr mime/mime jr x1 (either)
      scyther x4 (two males, two females)
      jynx/smoochum x2 (two smoochum is easiest)
      electabuzz/elekid x3 (three elekid is easiest)
      pinsir x1
      tauros x1
      magikarp x4 (two males, two females)
      lapras x1
      porygon x3
      omanyte x2
      kabuto x2
      aerodactyl x1
      snorlax/munchlax x2 (munchlax is easiest)
      dratini x2

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    Sat Oct 22, 2016 1:33 pm
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      summary: projects i'd like to re-do for better accuracy/general preference


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      DIANA :
      Image -> Image I will punish you in the name of the Moon! nature. (species change)

      EVELYNN :
      Image (hatch: faraway island)

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    Thu Nov 17, 2016 1:53 pm
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      Libertas wrote:
        BREED:
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=2137520 - BADASS (hgss)
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=3491861 - shady (frlg)
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=1394377 - i do say! (hgss)
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=2876854 - prankster (silver)
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=2032202 - soft (hgss)
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=1361635 - how girl get pragnent (hgss)
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=3297606 - it's dangerous to go alone! take this (bw)
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=3474751 - pimpin (gold)
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=3484151 - smooth talker (gold)
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=3480312 - dat rump (crystal)
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=3495099 - annoying (gold)
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=3331886 - magical girl (frlg)
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=3477749 - (ส้้้้้้ωส้้้้้้) (silver)


        FOR:
      • shiny spiritomb
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=1541065 - airhead
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=3489711 - these wounds they will not heal
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=1984880 - tender
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=3195825 - disgraceful
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=2398182 - ♥
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=2814380 - never shuts up
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=1299640 - fail
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=1467922 - lawful good
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=1328773 - knight in shining armor
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=3267702 - crawling in my skin
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=2323175 - punching bag
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=3217487 - swagblu
      • http://vdexproject.net/poke.php?id=2614990 - obsessive

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